Not probably, definitely.

Perhaps it's the mundanity of life, but when there is nothing else left to do, I feel that I must create. It should be higher up my agenda, I should be rushing to pick up my notebook and work on projects, but it's only by not doing them that I realise their importance in my life at least.

I've therefore challenged myself to write over 1,000 words per day in order to achieve the coveted 50,000 needed for a short novel, or at least this is the goal in my mind. Enough to strip back when editing and have enough to formulate a book.

The very experience of word vomit on the screen as I type is interesting. In Stephen King's 'On Writing' talks about the need to just keep writing, every day at least. I wish and aspire to get up to the 2,000 words a day that he recommends.

But one thing which hasn't come out, and I have little experience in, is that of collecting research and understanding what I'm writing about. Previously, all I've done is work on what I know, whereas actually I need much more. No one teaches you per se how to become a good researcher, though if I ever want a success of this, I need to quickly become one before the story moves too far in the wrong direction.

Recently, I've also gotten frustrated with myself for allowing myself to not focus on a fixed project, so instead I've wasted my time. I allowed myself to just continue not doing anything and then it dawned on me that this isn't feasible – I must create.

It's probably (not probably, definitely) too early to talk about the specifics of a story. It may or may not make it, and in what form is a great unknown. I don't care though, as for once I can say with pride, that I have created something greater than myself. Isn't that, as creatives all we truly desire?